Losing it

I've been living my life the same,
each day is a crying shame.
I drench my mind in my blame,
and let the alcohol take my pain.

I can't find where I went wrong,
Trying to make my life stay strong,
I lose myself in every drink,
helping me not to think.

The water fills,
I start to drift,
close my eyes,
my body sinks,
letting go,
of all I've got,
The strength subsides,
and I'm gone.

I know I'm all alone,
it's every man on their own,
Deep in thought, I will not lie,
I'm kind of wishing i would die.

The water fills,
I start to drift,
close my eyes,
my body sinks,
letting go,
of all I've got,
The strength subsides,
and I'm gone.

My days are all the same,
In this redundant shame,
I need to make a change,
But I'd rather walk away.

Seriously irritated with people

I have come to a point where I am done with dramatic. annoying people. I am tired of people who make a huge deal out of something when it is equally their fault as well, well whatever the outcome was. On top of that i am tired of men in general making me feel like a piece of shit. Yes I may be called "passive aggressive" or possibly even "cold-hearted". To be honest the passive aggressive comes from dealing with men that have glass hearts and can't seem to take things with out making a huge deal out of EVERYTHING. I would rather face someone face to face and try to avoid confrontation and hurt feelings. Right now i just really need to vent because I'm fucking tired of it. I am a person also, so instead of thinking of yourself maybe actually call me up and talk to me and ask me what i am thinking because honestly I am a fucking nice person and I do the most i can to try and make people happy and people like you just bring me down. So it comes down to saying good bye and fuck you to those few I have held on to for way to damn long.

I wont be here when you say sorry for the millionth time. I'm done trying to make you happy and make sure you are taken care of, just move on with you life and possibly forget we ever had anything intimate because I am trying to do that myself and at times some of you make me wish I would have never met you.

happy ** song in progress

I have never, seen you so damn happy,
Your eyes shining brighter than my cars headlights,
You're looking at me, like someone just smacked you,
But you can't seem to tell me, why you're happy.

I just want to hear from lips that it's me,
because you make me happier, than I'll ever be.
and when I'm with you, I can simply be me,
And it feels so perfect, having you here with me.

I feel like we have, known each other for so many years,
and when you hold me, my heart beats, uncontrollably,
I wish you would just tell me what you're thinking,
This silent staring is starting to drive me crazy.

and maybe if we stop playing these games we'll be happy together,
and we can stop pretending we like being alone, because I don't
The way you are looking at me makes me think you want me, i know i want you.
and I know that, I want this like you do, i kind of like you.

I have never, seen you so damn happy,
Your eyes shining brighter than my cars headlights,
You're looking at me, like someone just smacked you,
But you can't seem to tell me, why you're happy.

another video for you and I

Video for the songs I'm writing

You and I

** another work in progress for a song im writing**

You and I laying hand in hand,
Im mesmorized by your glance,
here laying in your arms
I cant imagine a better place to land

And every moment spent with you,
is always better than the last,
Im entangles by the thought of you
I dont want this to end.

You and I are so close to being something incredible,
I dont want to see us fall apart like the rest,
You and I are something everyone dreams of,
and You and I are....meant to be one.

You have the best of me,
As I lay here next to you,
My heart is beating out of control,
As you are pulling me close.

Everything we have been through,
Has only made us better now,
I can't imagine anyone,
to spend this moment with.

You and I are so close to being something incredible,
I dont want to see us fall apart like the rest,
You and I are something everyone dreams of,
and You and I are....meant to be one.

**work in progress for a song im writing**

i can see in your eyes you want to say good bye

and no matter what I say your car is stuck in drive,

Im begging for you to stay, stick around and try,

but you have one foot out the door

the tears in my eyes cant seem to justify,

that we are worth the fight.


Please, I'm begging you to not let go,

Our years thrown down the drain, where do i go,

My life ending, without you theres no me,

You keep pushing me away, not giving us a chance be



What did i do wrong,

is there someone new,

Please tell me its ok, if youre happy ill walk away

I promise I wont make you cry again.

Im on my knees please stay with me,

Please baby, Don't leave me!